My days are full of kisses. We are an affectionate family and so, kisses are given. Goodbye kisses, goodnight kisses, kisses for boo boos and hurt feelings, playful kisses (butterfly), silly kisses (fancy girls), made-up kisses (ram), blown kisses, caught kisses, kisses on cheeks and lips and foreheads, my day is made of just one more kiss. But last night's kiss will be one I hold in my heart forever.
See, Maisy was in the hospital for so long and there was very little positive that dealt with her mouth. She struggled to breathe, she was intubated, it all was very negative. The idea of giving Mommy a kiss never occurred to her. I tried to get Maisy comfortable with kisses and she learned to like kisses on the cheek and that is it. So, we were all quite excited when Maisy began to blow kisses. "Can I have a kiss?" and she tucks her lower lip under her upper lip, puts her hand up to her mouth, and makes a kissing noise. We love it! Sometimes she confuses signing "thank you" for blowing kisses and Mommy's "can you say 'thank you'?" gets strangers a kiss.
Now, back to last night. I tucked her in, turned out the light and just before I walked out said, "Goodnight honey. I love you." and Maisy made her kissing noise. We don't always know how much Maisy understands. We know she desperately wants to do what others do, but requests and direction are often ignored. So when my four-year-old recognizes that "I love you." is a kissable statement and reacts on it, it gives me so much hope. That one little kiss holds so much happiness and hope for what will come.
I know this is a lot to read into the kiss of a child, but this is something I have waited a long time for. Love is something I try not to take for granted and love is more than a kiss, but that little testament means a lot. "Where there is great love, there are always miracles." Willa Cather